Friday, December 28, 2012

Frankly Friday...v18

What is Frankly Friday? 
Let's define Frankly shall we...
frankly |ˈfra ng klē|adverbin an open, honest, and direct manner
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I want this to be a way for all of us to be open, raw, and transparent with not only each other...but with ourselves. I think we put a lot of stock into the "fear" of what others may think of us...into the "fear" of really putting what's on your heart out there in case someone decides to tear you down.
I'm over the fear & you should be too.
So let's write...whether it's about a situation you're struggling through, a victory you've made, a memory that you can't let go of...anything as long as it's honest.
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I can not believe that 2012 is almost over. 
It seems like only yesterday i was making a list of things i was going to accomplish in 2012 and i was going to stick with it and actually do something this year. Meh. 
Here is the funny thing about resolutions: most people never accomplish them. Why is that? 
Why do we make these lists with things we would like to do or not do and then complete them for maybe a month before realizing "hey this is too hard, or too complicated, or too much work, and i quit". 
The truth is: i don't want to be a quitter. 
I was raised to not quit, you stick it out and suck it up and make it through what ever obstacle comes your way and if you need help--you ask for it. 
Yet when it comes to actually being consistent in bettering myself...i fall short. 
Why is that? 
I've been thinking about this for a while now and have come up with a few reasons excuses i use to get out of this whole but i made a resolution thing. 
1. Fear. 
Pretty simple right? You make a list of things you want to change, do better, accomplish, go see, listen more of, do less of, etc that it is simply overwhelming at points. I fear that i won't be able to accomplish what i've set out to do, i fear that i'll disappoint myself and others, i fear...i fear...i fear.
Fear has been captain of my ship for far too long. 
I no longer want to fear failing or disappointing others (or myself). 
I no longer desire to measure out my successes against anything but what God has in store for me. 
I also know that while this is easy to say it can be an absolute JOB to accomplish. 
So while i may not conquer fear every day in 2013 I vow to make it less of a foundation within my life.
2. I'm too busy. 
Really? Am i REALLY too busy? 
For example one of my 2012 resolutions was to get in the Word daily, and i failed miserably
It all boiled down to me thinking i was too busy or too tired or too _____ to spend even 20 minutes a day studying God's Word. Was i really too busy? No, i wasn't. Yes, some days i was over-run with things to get accomplished and by the time my head hit the pillow i was out like a light. I understand that life can get in the way of the things that mean the most to us...but i've also learned: we allow it. 
I find myself sitting here wondering, have i've backed myself into this nice little comfortable corner because i don't want to change...which brings me to:
3. Do i really want to change? 
Do i really want to change my daily habits? 
Am i enjoying this comfortable corner that i've made? Am i complacent with not doing much of anything different? Hmm...if i'm honest, probably. I look at my life now, age 24, and realize how i add very little new into my life; which isn't how i want to live my life in the slightest. I want to try new things and challenge myself to grow into a well-rounded individual. I want to live life.
So do i really want to change?
Yes. I do.
It will require effort and A LOT of motivation and kicks in the toosh.

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So ladies & gentlemen i plan to make a list and share it January 1, 2013 of some things i will do my best to accomplish in 2013. Will they be resolutions? No. They will be aspects of change that i will weave into my daily more resolutions, more living.
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Would you like to read some of the past Frankly Fridays? Give it a go...
v1 | v2 | v3 | v4 v5 v6 v7 v8 v9 | v10 v11 | v12 v13 v14 | v15 v16 | v17
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If you were Frank this Friday don't forget to link up!


Jordan said...

Great post! I love the idea of the new year because it brings a fresh start! Hope you have a great day!

Laura said...

I never make resolutions.
Last year I did make a to-list though and it was long and I've done almost everything I put on the list. :)

Melissa said...

I hate when people don't make resolutions (goal or to-do list - SAME THING! :)) b/c they say you never stick to them! Well with an attitude like that of COURSE you won't stick to it! Haha! Some people do, and i don't consider it a failure if you did your best & didn't give up!


Victoria said...

Can't wait to read your list! I am excited for 2013....I don't even know why, but I just think it's going to be good. :)