Friday, October 26, 2012

Frankly Friday...v9

 What is Frankly Friday? 
Let's define Frankly shall we...
frankly |ˈfra ng klē|adverbin an open, honest, and direct manner
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I want this to be a way for all of us to be open, raw, and transparent with not only each other...but with ourselves. I think we put a lot of stock into the "fear" of what others may think of us...into the "fear" of really putting what's on your heart out there in case someone decides to tear you down.
I'm over the fear & you should be too.
So let's write...whether it's about a situation you're struggling through, a victory you've made, a memory that you can't let go of...anything as long as it's honest.
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I've been thinking about what to write about this week...and here i sit Thursday night contemplating relationships, all thanks to The Vampire Diaries. 
When i first saw that ecard i laughed so hard and then i remembered what a break up is really like.
It isn't humorous at all. 
The truth is, losing someone you love sucks. 
Now don't you fret, i'm not going into a tyrant on how dumb boys are or the depths of a broken heart after a break up; no thats another story to be told in person over coffee. =)
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Letting go is hard. 
In fact, the process is one that very few people walk all the way through. 
In some situations i've realized i haven't fully let go, and it can build resentment and bitterness in a way that only brings sadness.
This almost sounds like i'm bearing my soul; and i suppose in a way i am.
I don't always let go of the pain {as i've mentioned before} because it reminds me that what i once experienced was real and held a meaning.
Not very healthy emotional habits i know. :)
...most of the things i allow myself to remember are glorified. 
Maybe those of you who are single can relate with me on this. 
We {in our moments of loneliness} tend to look at our past relationships, those that held a piece of our hearts, with rose colored glasses.
Not always, no definitely not always, but in recalling the romantic moments we paint these men into being the most loving, understanding, and ______ to have ever walked into our life. 
We can't do that to ourselves anymore.
I can't do that to myself anymore. 
Sometimes you miss the 
memories, not the person.
. . .
I'm becoming a better person.
It's taking some time though...
I'm letting go {have already let go} of a lot of things from my past. 
I don't find myself pinning after past relationships.
I'm not submersed in the what-ifs of it all.
I have found freedom.
Some times that freedom only lasts for a moment, a day, a week, a month....but it's lasting.
And i have realized that God has, and is continually restoring my heart; Praise Him. 
I'm not the same girl i was a year ago, two years ago, five years ago; and in most ways that is an incredibly joyous thing. 
I've changed, i've grown, i've become someone who doesn't enjoy letting bitterness settle.
I'm a woman who refuses to let the elephant stay in the room.
I'm a woman who continues to pursue what she's passionate about, even if i get confused sometimes.
I'm not consumed with the idea of marriage or children; even though it's a strong desire. 
I'm happy. 
I'm genuinely good {even though i have my moments of bad}.  
. . .
It's late...
 So i'm not sure how much of this is truly coherent, but i hope it is making sense.
In case it hasn't, i guess i'll do a summary. 
Relationships are challenging, break ups happen, bitterness can settle, but there is hope for healing. 
There is always hope for healing. 
. . .
So that's me being FRANK with where i am in an area of my life...take it or leave it.
What are you being frank about lately?
{Feel free to check out some past Frankly Fridays}
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Link up so i can read your stories 


Victoria said...

I like what you said about missing memories not people! It can be so hard to remember that we got out of someone's life for a reason....

Letting go is a good thing!

Ashley said...

This really is a hard situation to go through...I love how you said that it makes you a better person..because it really does!

Laura said...

Sometimes you miss the
memories, not the person.


I wanted to link up today but can you believe that for once I actually have NOTHING to say!? It's weird haha.

Robin said...

"Not very healthy emotional habits i know." <-- If you're referring to you "not always letting go" of pain, I disagree. I think it's good for you to admit that you are feeling this. More pain can come later if you try to suppress what you are really feeling.

Sarah Mc. said...

Eeeek, so right. I don't miss dealing with breakups at all. Letting go sucks but can also be the best part.