like for real, where has this year gone?!
i've been busy busy busy lately. i'm editing a ton of photos (a wedding, a garden party, a family photo session), cleaning house (mounds of laundry i tell you), working out more consistently (thank you job for having a gym (even though it is decrepit) for me to hustle during my lunch break), face timing with eddie, and trying to practice gratefulness. the other sunday at church i was just hit hard by the sermon on gratefulness. i feel like lately i have been a complainer - and people are viewing me as a complainer - and i do not want that to be the reflection i put off. so i'm thankful, and stung, by the conviction. it's good though, it's always good.
celebrating... technology! now that eddie has moved i'm so thankful for face time/skype and the ability to talk/text/and see his face. it helps soften the blow to my heart. it's been a long time since i've done long distance - and my how the game has changed! <3
reading... big magic: creative living beyond fear // i'm slowly working my way through this book (slowly because i haven't had the time to dedicate to reading, but that is changing this week!)
pondering... feelings. many people don't know that i struggle with actually feeling all of the range of emotions. with my family history it pushed me into this cycle of self-preservation that stunted a lot of things in my heart and mind. counseling is helping me process all the emotions and to really delve in and feel the beautiful range of emotion - its challenging but beautiful. so i've been crying a lot more recently, not because i'm fully sad, but because for beautiful praise - i am feeling again.
sipping... ginger tea like it's my life. it's just so calming to me. i also recently got some tazo chocolate chai tea bags - and it's a nice little treat when i am craving chocolate (which is always, lets be honest)
going... TO MAINE THIS MONTH!!!! eeep. i can't handle my excitement. the north-east just looks like such a different kind of pretty, and to spend time with my dude will be awesome (and did i mention we are hiking? of course we are, it's kind of our thing)
wearing... this necklace all the time.
tasting... plantain chips all day every day. i made some plantain nachos the other day that made my heart soar (chips + hamburger meat + guac + black beans + cheese).
listening to... you + me on repeat. ahhh it's so dang good
loving... my new mattress. it's like laying on a cloud.